...help or medication?? i truely believe i am mentally ill. i am crazy and always have been.. but now that i am 25.. my mind is crazier than ever. i feel like a lunatic. my boyfriend gets in fights with me and tells me how crazy i am. i have depression and i think i am bi polar. i sometimes have a feeling of such happiness and think of how happy i am to be alive.. then moments later i want to die, i hate my life and cant believe how bad my life is. i drink vodka to take the pain away but sometims it doesnt work. my mom, brother, and dad are alcoholics. my uncle is schizofrenic. one night when i lived at my moms, i cried in my room telling he ri have depression.. and she told me that i didnt and that its all in my head and that she went through horrible things when she was younger and that i have no right to be depressed. if only she knew what i have been through... ... what do i do. I DONT HAVE medical insurance. i cant find a job right now ( i graduated high school 7 yrs ago and i am 25 years old)
i cant find a job, i need a job with befits so i can get insurance. i applied at every grocery store near me and no one calls me back. albertsons, vons, ralphs. i am white and my boyfriend is black, mexican, and native american.. and he verbally abuses me .. sometimes calls me white trash.. he pften calls me a bitch. we live together with room mates. i know i shoudl break up with him but i have no where else to live and theres something wrong with me. i am crazy. . i need medication or something/